I've really made some huge changes in my life beginning in February of this year. This isn't something fun to talk about for most people, but I'm just gonna keep it real. And for all I know, no one reads my blog anyways so I'm just writing for myself (which is what it's about)! Anyhoo, so I stopped working out after my eye surgery early last Fall and completely fell into a slumpy bumpy frumpy pile of lazy poo. What that means is after losing the prego weight two months after Chris Rod was born, I lost whatever mojo I had left and ended up gaining most of it back.
Then, one day in February, it hit me. Who am I? Why do I have zero energy (all of the time) and feel so crappy mentally?! Have I lost who I am after becoming a mother? I have never EVER never never ever been a size 2 in my adult life, and I wouldn't want to be. But I need to be doin better regardless.
I don't think that there is one size that fits all. I think women are beautiful awesome individuals who fit into their OWN perfect size. And I am happy as long as I am healthy and within a healthy weight range. Listen, I'll never be the woman with sky high metabolism that can eat a million french fries and never gain an ounce of weight. And I'll also never be the starving eat one cheerio a day 100lb chick, either. I will always be the woman that has to put in work to maintain a healthy body. Especially since I love everything about good food. And I love to cook. And, by the way, stress is a HUGE factor in weight loss and maintenance. So I've also learned to let go of the negativity in my life and try not to sweat the small stuff.
So! It's been a little over two months now, and I have not only lost the baby weight (AGAIN) but 7 more pounds past that. My ultimate goal is to reach my Louisiana Army days weight (or jeans size) by October of this year. That calculates to be a very healthy weight loss and gives me plenty of time to do it right. Obviously, the starving and diet fad options only help for losing weight temporarily. Many people that use these options are sometimes losing water weight and lean muscle tissue rather than fat. But because they see the pounds off the scale, they continue on.
I have been down those roads before. But I'm smarter now and doing it right. I'm running at least 10 miles a week (although very slowly LOL) and weight training. Working out 5-6 days a week and cutting out a LOT. Rarely eating out, no calorie-filled teas and juices, no eating past dinnertime, tons of water, and watching my carbs/calories. But I'm not perfect, and if sometimes I don't follow my list perfectly, I cut back in other areas or workout harder then next day. We can't just be stupidly limited, otherwise it'll lead to deranged crazy woman cravings (which aren't fun). Sometimes I do sneak a fry or two or three....LOL!
I want to be an active mommy for my family and be around for a long time. I want to know I am taking care of myself and possibly preventing future diseases or illnesses. I read in an article that some of the top killers are heart disease and cancer, both of which can sometimes be prevented by taking care of your body. Very scary stuff.
Finally finally finally, I am back to focusing on ME. I know it will take time for me to accomplish my goal. And if for some crazy reason I don't reach my goal by October, I won't flip out, I will just continue moving forward. It saddens me that even before I was prego, I didn't try harder to get back down to a healthy-for-me size like I should have been. But at least I am here now. And I'm gonna be back and better than ever by the end of 2010!!
I definitely gotta utilize this time that I'm not working and make the most of it. After I start working (hopefully within the next 2-3 months...foreal this time), I will need to work it in my weekly schedule no matter what. I think my jogging stroller will help for the weekends. It's always been and always will be at the top of my priority list to be the best mother I can be to my son, and give him all the love and attention I can give. But I realize now that I need to make sure I am taking time for me as well, because being healthier will make me an even better mommy. Up until now, I was not making myself a priority. But now I am. And it feels scrumptious.
